Joy and Peace are Never Released Through Unbelief

“Joy is never released through unbelief, but it is always present where there is belief” –Joyce Meyer

Throughout this job search journey I was becoming increasingly negative. As each door closed it seemed like another was NOT opening. It was just one closed door after another. The one door that frustrated me greatly was from a recruiter in England. His name is Darren and he has ads running all the time for employees through a group that I belong to on Linked-in. Several times he advertised for positions which I felt fit me absolutely perfectly. I could not get that man to call me back. I would occasionally receive some short and snide comment from him over my “linked in” e-mail that said something to the effect of, “I’m sorry but we have nothing that fit your qualifications at this time but we will keep your resume on file.” How in the HE—did he know he had nothing that fit my qualifications when as far as I was concerned the job description outlined fit me to a tee! Because I was unable to connect with him personally he had no idea who I was or what I could do for his client. He never even made the attempt to try to get to know me past the paper. I tried to explain to him (electronically of course) that I was indeed able to work in the UK and throughout the EEU, I e-mailed him my resume and a separate explanation of my qualifications, I left him a message on his voice-mail in the UK. I don’t understand these people. My interaction (or lack thereof) made me feel undervalued as a potential employee and I started believing that I would never get a job.

While I know that I LET him make me feel this way, it caused a downward spiral in both my self esteem and self worth. I didn’t think I was ever going to get a job. In the end, I gave up “looking” about February and started this blog. All of the few interviews I had after that came from HR professionals pulling my resume off of Career Builders but to be honest, I had come to a low point in my career that I didn’t even really care anymore. Basically, I stopped believing that I would ever get a job and became increasingly depressed.

Just as regret and dread are “thieves of joy”, doubt and unbelief equally take the joy out of our lives.

I vow to work hard at believing that it will happen (whatever it may be at the time), that I can do it (whatever it may fall), and that it will all work out (whatever all defines).